I miss you...

"When I miss you, I don't have to go far- I just have to look inside my heart because that's where I'll find you."

Yes, that's what I keep telling myself but I can't help but miss my fiancé :( Where is he you might ask? Las Vegas...for how long? Only a week..some might think that's not long at all, but to me its an eternity lol..,It's funny how much you truly miss someone when they aren't around. You miss their hugs, kisses, and accidentally call their name when something funny is on tv & realize they aren't there. His aunt was diagnosed with cancer & she's starting her treatment this week and he wanted to be there for support. That's something I truly admire about him...his love for his family, his loyalty, how big his heart is...that's the first thing that attracted me to him...that there was more to him ....hopefully this week will zoooom by & he will be back in my arms where he belongs :D I'm also taking him being gone as a time to reflect how much I really love him...and what a blessing he is to my life. I don't have many people I can count on, but I know I'll always have him...it brings tears to my eyes when I think about all we have been through just to get to where we are now. He goes above & beyond just to make me happy...& I'm so very very grateful,

Weigh in...

So a long time ago I wrote a post about losing weight. I was on my diet for about a week & then the holidays rolled around & the diet plan was history. Then 2 weeks ago I decided to hop back on board & start over. So I decided to weigh myself today and I lost 6 pounds ! I'm proud of myself and hope to continue this weight loss journey to not only look great but feel great on the inside !

I have a 7th Month Old !

I have a 7th month old ! Wait hold on, can we rewind that?! A 7th Month Old?! Time is literally flying....I remember looking at my son's 6-9 month clothing, and saying "wow this is huge and we have a long way to go before he can fit in that." And now the "long way to go" is finally here and I look at his 0-3 month clothing and say where is my little baby? *sigh* I guess I have to come to terms with he isn't going to be a baby forever....

What's he up to this month:

- Last time he was weighed he was 17 pounds.
- His laugh as changed, and all he does is laugh non-stop.
- Whenever he sees his bottle or baby food he goes CRAZY
-He sits up all by himself unassisted
- Frankie still hates "tummy time" but we work on it each day.
- he has his two bottom teeth coming in
- he loves to play with anything that's not a toy. LOL
- he's starting to become shy around people he doesn't know.
- he reaches for me & his dad.
- he loves making funny noises.
- he LOVES our dog Simba, but Simba doesn't quite feel the same yet. Lol

Highlights of last month:

Frankie had his first fever after he received the flu vaccine & I was EXTREMELY worried.

I caught the flu shortly after (not sure how on earth I got the flu) and was really sick it was the first time ever that that I realized as a mom you don't get any days off even when u are severely sick lol.

We've been frequenting restaurants more often with Frankie & he has been behaving extremely well...we bring toys & some baby mum mums & that usually gets him distracted.

Im the type of person that can never say NO....I dont like hurting people's feelings or disappointing people.  As a result I end up unhappy for committing to something I didn't really want to do or changing my plans to suit someone elses'.  This New Year, I made a promise to myself that I wasn't going to do anything I didn't want to do.  Even if that meant letting someone else down.  I feel sometimes I go above and beyond for people when they dont do the same for me.  Granted we shouldn't do things and expect the same in return....but sometimes one has to think "am I going over the top and in turn letting my own self down?"  So for the first time today I said "NO" and I must admit it felt good. Because, if I would have said yes I would have disappointed myself.  I would have been upset for committing to something and would have kept thinking "I really dont want to do this why did I say yes???!!!" and it would have gotten me in a bad mood.  Bottom line: sometimes you have to say NO because you cant please everyone.  Trying to make everyone happy at the same time makes you unhappy in the long run.  Its not bad to lend a helping hand here and there but dont over extend yourself and make yourself miserable in the end.

Dear PMS

Dear PMS,
These past few days you have made me feel restless, depressed, & wanting to cry for no apparent reason. You definitely made your presence known these last few days when the fiancé said "whoa is it about that time of the month?!" Thanks for being obvious ! You make me want to stay in bed alllllll day & the smallest task seem so difficult...to be honest I HATE when you come for a visit...I feel overwhelmed & not like myself...I hope you never come back.

Sincerly,
One pissed off momma !

New Look !

As you all can see my profile has a new look thanks to Noelani, who blogs at Our Beautiful Little Journey  ! Its like she took my vision and made it a reality ! My blog is exactly what I wanted it to look like and Im so very thankful.  It truly represents ME.  I think every blog should represent the author of the blog. I love how she arranged the pictures that mean the world to me beautifully and didn't stop until I was pleased (which didn't take long at all).  I'm happy about my blog's face lift and thought I would share it if anyone was interested in doing the same.  Her prices are reasonable, and she's extremely great at what she does.

"The Secret"

Hey you ! Yes you ! Do you want to know a "Secret" that will change your life? A secret that promises to transform your money issues, health problems, love life, and anything else in between? Well if so read ahead:


A few years ago I came across an Oprah episode that promised to tranform your life. I thought to myself "how on earth can she give us the power to tranform our lives?" She introduced this book entitled "The Secret" by Rhonda Byrne. Inside of it she claimed it showed us "The Secret" to living your dream life. I brought the book because I was interested in what the book was about. I'm always into books that can help tranform your life positively. The book writes about the law of attraction. That whatever we think we attract into our lives. They used the examples of how when you wake up in the morning and you stub your toe and then from that one moment your whole day goes from bad to worse. The reason that being is because when we stubbed our toe we already began to believe "today is turning into a bad day" and the law of attraction brings whatever we think into play. Hence, we will have a bad day because we are attracting negative energy with our thoughts. In order to transfrom one's life we must change our method of thinking by these steps.


1. Ask (get a clear idea of what you want and be specific ex: the man of your dreams, your dream house, or lose weight).
2. Believe (believe that you already have the thing you want for example if you want to lose weight visualize yourself at your ideal weight, look in the mirror and believe you are exactly where you need to be body wise, buy clothes that are the size that you want to be. Tell yourself everyday "im so happy and grateful to be at my ideal weight and I feel great about how I look. Be thankful for the weight lost).
3. Receive


The secret is a good book and in my opinion its helped me turn my life around. Many people have used it such as Plato, Beethoven, Oprah, and Eistein. Don't get me wrong there are times where my negativity gets the best of me, but then I try and change my mind set. I would highly recommend it. For all those that dont like reading or don't have the time to read Netflix has "The Secret" available to watch instantly. I watch it from time to time because it inspires me.


Give it a try & tell me what you think = )



"Everything is possible, nothing is impossible. There are no limits. Whatever you can dream of can be yours, when you use The Secret."

I wish...

Sometimes I wish that I could call you, but I know you won't answer. I wish I could hear your laugh again and talk to you like we used to talk. Not a day goes by that I don't think about u & how guilty I feel. Guilty for WAITING until now to realize how much I loved you & took you being in this world for granted. It never registered in my mind that your time in this world will end before I got a chance to say bye. I was so absorbed in my own "life" that I never stopped to say let me call my grandmother to check in or tell her I love her. It's now that I can't get to you that I think about you constantly & how wrong I was for letting you leave this world without you knowing I LOVE MAMA...so I say this to anyone who
Will listen: always let people you love know it, never take the time they have in this world for granted, & ALWAYS make time for people you love.

Monet A-Z

I saw this on Jenn's blog & figured I'd let u know the ABCs about me. Also, Jen's blog is pretty cool so stop by it : )

A: age – 24 !!! I feel so old *sigh*

B: bed size – Queen but I NEED/WANT a bigger bed !

C: chore that you hate – cleaning bottles !

D: dogs – a Yorkie named Simba :)

E: essential start to you day – eating some cereal.

F: favorite color – Red.

G: gold or silver – does white gold count? Lol

H: height – 5'0 (I add the "0" because it makes me feel t.a.l.l.e.r) lol

I: instruments you play – nothing I'm so not musical "but one time at band camp..." <----- I just had to say it lol

J: job title – SAHM.

K: kids – a sixth month old named Frankie Jr. :)

L: live – New York !

M: mother’s name – mommy !!!!

N: nicknames – Puppy lol...don't ask ! Lol

P: pet peeve – My fiancé not cleaning up after himself, asking people to do things more than once, & people that give advice when it's not asked !

Q: quote from a movie – "the saddest thing in life is wasted talent."

R: right or left handed – right

S: siblings – 23 year old sister, 13 year old sister, & 10 year old brother.

T: time you wake up – 8:30am-9am

U: underwear – yes I wear underwear !! Lol

V: vegetables you hate – eggplant

W: what makes you run late? – my fiancé it never FAILS ! I'm a early bird gets the worm kind of gal lol

X: x-ray’s you’ve had – My teeth for braces.

Y: yummy food that you make – chicken cutlet & pesto sauce, chicken alfredo, & baked chicken.

Z: zoo animals – polar bears.

If any of u guys decide to let us know the ABCs of u please let me know so u can read it & comment :D

New Years & Six Year Anniversary

Lately...I've been M.I.A because I had the flu. I brought in the New Year sick as a dog :( but I will say I was so very thankful to have spent it with my son for the first time & my fiancé. Some of my New Years Resolutions are:

-To lose weight
- Get a gym membership
- enroll back in school to finally finish my credits.
- take my son to new places once the weather gets warm.
- read more
- take swimming classes with my son
- blog more !

Six Year Anniversary: me & my fiancé made it to six years ! :) We've been together since we were both 18. We have had a lot of ups & downs but we are happy where we are. We have been blessed with an amazing son who has changed our lives for the best :) & we hope for a lifetime together !

Parenting Advice Or Just Being Plain Annoying...

When I was pregnant I came to the realization that my little bump just wasn't mine anymore. That people felt it was free reign to just feel for a kick or talk AT my stomach (which kind of made me feel awkward because I'm the type of gal who likes her s p a c e). Little did i know it would be the same after I had my son. Everyone just FEELS the need to offer advice or tell you what you're doing wrong or how they did it back in the day (some 20 years ago). OR tell you you shouldn't always "listen" to your doctor (I'm sorry you graduated from medical school when?) So here is my mini vent to older people that offer advice just to hear themselves "TALK."

This is my child and he's everywhere he needs to be whether it be growth wise or milestone wise. I feed him when I know he's hungry & I don't wait for him to cry hysterically. I put him on a schedule because it WORKS for both me & him and I believe children thrive on schedules. I don't care what your did twenty years ago with your child. I don't listen to everything the doctor says I do research first and then figure out what's best for my child. I don't care if you fed your child everything under the sun and he/she never got sick I'm in NO rush to feed my son all types of food because it will happen in due time. Lastly, I know my son better than anyone & I know what's best for him. End of rant !