10 months !!

It's crazy how fast time is going by. I cannot believe my son is 10 months old. He's such a happy, sweet, amazing, and wonderful little boy to be around. He melts my heart every single day.

The happenings:

- Frankie says dada, mama, and papa. He once said Grandma and "hi baby" when he was repeating me. It wasn't that clear but he was definitely trying to say it :)

- He's so well behaved at restaurants, church, and let's other people hold him.

- He has six teeth ! [wowzers]

- He eats 4 baby foods a day and some table food I allow him to have ( mashed potatoes, chicken, fresh fruits, and veggies)

- He got baptized this month !

- He just started cruising (he's extremely lazy lol)

- He LOVES little girls that are babies or toddlers (he's quite a lady's man)

- He loves music and loves to dance [I like to think he got that from his momma] lol

- We are going to start Birthday Planning soon for his "Yo Gabba Gabba" themed party.

My son is truly my world. He's learning so many new things, and it's such a joy watching him grow up. I'm very much looking forward to seeing what else is in store for us !

My little boy

Sometimes I look at my son and I ask myself "what on earth did I do right to get such a wonderful little boy?" He's beautiful and perfect in my eyes. He puts all his trust in me. He trust me to guide him in a world he's never been before, to show him how to love so he can love others, and he trust me to care for him endlessly. He's opened my heart to something I've never felt before...an endless love, a love that feels like no other, a pure love. Sometimes I think how blessed I am
To wake up to a bright, smily, and curious little boy. I think how some people aren't so fortunate. And I pray for those people. I think about how much I want to teach my son, show him the world, hold his hand till he's a man, and smother him with kisses. Sometimes I feel like I'm failing because I want to give him more than I have...much much more. I lay awake wondering what the road holds...and I pray this moment last forever. Him snuggled next to me...me holding him...smelling his ever so soft hair...& reaching out to hold his little hand which will soon outgrow mine....

Love this quote !

As mothers we all tend to be hard on ourselves. Sometimes we feel that nothing we do is good enough because we want to give our children the world. We think sometimes they deserve more (even if we give them all we have and more). Hopefully the next time you feel that way you will read or think of this quote and it will make you feel a little better xoxo :)

Easter weekend

This Easter weekend was fun. I made the Easter cupcakes I was d.y.i.n.g to make. I also dyed some Easter eggs in honor of my son's first Easter !!! Brought back the memories of me being a kid again, but then those feelings felt a little too familiar when I saw that my eggs did not come out the way they looked on the box !!! Lol. I decided next year I'm using kool-aid for dye. They say it makes the colors
on the eggs looks brighter and darker.

Easter was spent with my side of the family. Although the only person missing was my Grandma. Holidays just really aren't the same without her. We had a good time though it made my Grandfather happy to see my son and spend time with him. My son loved opening his Easter basket (or should I say playing with the wrapping) lol.

This week will be extremely exciting for me. My son is being baptized on Sunday and I hope everything goes as planned. Tomorrow he has to take his baptism pictures so I hope he doesn't give us a hard time lol. I think it might ran this Sunday which will be a HUGE HUGE HUGE bummer because I wanted to get some nice outside baptism pictures of my son and also because I HATE the rain it just ruins my hair. Speaking of hair I tried a new hair style (sometimes you need a change and to step out your comfort zone). I Decided to have my hair curled to add some volume to it and I must say I LOVE this new look. I feel so glamourous. Hope all you fellow bloggers had a great Easter and hopefully an even better week !

Friday Letters

I've been seeing this on a few blogs lately so I figured I'd give it a try ! :)

Dear Easter,
I'm so happy you're almost here. I'm looking forward to dyeing eggs, making Easter cupcakes, and spending time with my family.

Dear Future Mother In Law,
Why are you so annoying ?! Get a life will ya??!! Lol

Dear diet,
Do you mind sitting on the back burner this weekend? I promise I'll be good all of next week !

Dear Express,
Why are the things in your store so cute and expensive. We have a love/hate relationship. But thank you for the amazing blouse, python skirt, necklace, and earrings I got from you.

Dear Aldo shoes,
You are so cute and painful at the same time. I know I'm gonna be in a lot of pain because of you guys for my son's baptism !

Dear man taking forever to walk like there aren't people behind you trying to get by,
Move your ass !

I now know why people do these letter they are so move fun! Have a safe and happy Easter everyone !

Monet :)

Here comes Peter Cotton Tail.

Today I took my son to see the Easter Bunny for the first time. The line was ridiculously long [we were on line for an hour]. I felt it was totally worth it though ! I met some awesome moms on the line and chit chatted. My son was very well behaved, and looked adorable in his Easter picture with the Easter bunny. We then went to TGI Fridays and then I brought Frankie some toys in Babies R Us. It was a great Sunday and I'm so happy to have spent it with my little family : ]

How was your weekend?

Fear...

Let's talk about fears. What scares you? Death? Spiders? Heights? Only a few things truly scare me. Death? Yes. Spiders? Buh ring it...I will kill a spider in a heart beat. Heights? Not at all I ride every roller coaster at six flags the higher the better. So what scares me something happening to my son AND DRIVING !

Yes, driving. Nothing scares me more in this world other than that. I don't even have my license because I hate getting behind the wheel. As soon as I get behind the wheel my hands get sweaty, my heart nearly pops out of my chest, and my anxiety kicks up full speed. I'm scared of getting into an accident, other drivers yelling at me, and making a dumb choice behind the wheel. I remember one time driving in a parking lot with my fiancé and I was supposed to pull in a parking spot (it was around 12 midnight and all the stores were closed) and instead of pressing the break I pressed the gas and jumped over the sidewalk and into a bush near a TD bank. The sprinklers came on and it was one of the scariest moments in my life. I took lessons, but once the lesson was over my self confidence went out the window because there weren't a extra set of breaks next to me to save me if I made the wrong move. I do badly wish I could get over this fear.

A license to me equals independence and freedom. Freedom to not rely on anyone for a ride. Independence so that just me and my son can hit the road instead of waiting for my fiancé who takes f.o.r.e.v.e.r to get ready. Its quite annoying.

So how do I plan on getting to reach my goal of hitting the road? Well first I need to start from the bottom up. Being that I lived in Nj I have to retake my permit test in New York, then I have to take driving lessons [im so petrified :/ ], and then after that I have to take my road test *takes deep breath*. All I'm focusing on right now is the freedom to just be able to drive.

So tell me what are your fears? How did you over come them id love to know :)