Thanksgiving

I know I'm extremely late but Frankie's First Thanksgiving was great. At first it was overwhelming because he is older and isn't used to sleeping over other people's houses. He was having a difficult time during nap time and was extremely fussy. He got better though and slept great. I was extremely thankful this year because I have my own family ! I remember this time last year I was so excited to be able to spend the holidays with my baby. I must say it's absolutely amazing having my own family. Im truly thankful for God blessing me with so much and listening to my prayers and helping me become a better person. Im thankful for my amazing son who has showed me the true meaning of love. I'm thankful for my fiancee who has been by my side since I was 18 and has been my rock. Although these last few months have been hard we are stronger than ever. I'm thankful for my family and friends. : )

Old love.....

Today I decided to visit the nursing home where my fiancee's aunt is. She just had a stroke and I wanted to make sure she was doing okay. She just recently got a new roommate that they called Aunt Steffy who was 102 years old. She was such an adorable little old lady. She was confused where she was and scared because she didn't know anyone. She cried "I'm lost and I don't know how to get home." To calm her down a bit the nurse showed her a picture of her and her husband to show her she was in the right place. When she saw the picture she cried more saying "My husband, my wonderful husband. He's left me all alone in this world and I miss him terribly. Why do you have this picture?" My heart ached for her. Not only because she had Alzheimer's disease but because she longed for her husband who passed away. The tears that came down her eyes caused my eyes to water. It must be so hard losing a spouse and feeling alone in this world. My heart goes out to her and any person whose lost a spouse. So often times we don't think about having to continue the road alone and that we might not have the one we love forever...all I know is I have a new perspective on appreciating my fiancee more.

Christmas Gift RAVE !

I went on this website called www.iseeme.com and it was truly amazing. It allows you to personalize a variety of different books with your child's name. You can choose between books such as fairy tale books, pirate books, Christmas books, and alot of other books. The one I'm getting Frankie is the one in the picture below. It's called "Who Loves Me?" and you're able to put all the people that love your little bundle of joy in it like grandparents, aunts, and uncles. It also comes with a blanket with your child's name on it. I'm very excited about this Christmas gift because not only is it personalized but the illustrations are beautiful. This would be a great addition to our growing chidren's book library ! I cant wait for Frankie to get his in the mail. :)

I have a 5 Month Old....

My son is now 5 months. I think "where did the time go?" I look at his newborn clothes, and im shocked he was that small. Luckily I have photos as evidence because I wouldn't believe he was that small. He's grown and changed so much over the past few months. He amazes me everyday with the new things that he learns. It's never a dull moment with Frankie. He is such a joy to have in my life and Im so Thankful having him in my life.


What's been going on this month?

- Frankie is back on schedule. *Looks to the sky and Thanks God* He now sleeps about 8-9 hours a night.

- Frankie rolls over more frequently.

- He laughs non-stop at "Yo Gabba Gabba"

- He tries to put his pacifier in his mouth

- Frankie now cries when I leave a room, and when I return he stops crying.

- He started eating solids so far he's tasted: carrots, squash, apple sauce, banana, sweet potato, green beans, and peaches.

- He enjoys playing with his toys now whereas before he would become restless pretty quick.

- He drinks about 24-30 ounces a day.

-He can sit up with less support.

New Camera & New Photos !

E0s Rebel T3i

Pull out LCD Monitor

Image of my son on the LCD Monitor

Frankie smiling and sucking on his fingers.

He's no longer in the mood to take photos

"Mom I over the photos already !"

Very interested in his zipper...

Just hanging out...

Ready to snooze...

Too Cute

Fake Sleeping LOL

PJ time....

In a prior post I was deciding about which camera to get because my last camera broke. It was a toss up between a Nikon and a Canon. My fiancee finally brought my camera and it is a *Drum Roll Please* Canon EOS Rebel T3i. I feel it was a great buy not only does it take excellent photos, but I like the fact that you can bring the LCD monitor forward, and angle it various ways. Im still learning how to work the camera, but it has great features. Here are pictures of my new camera and some pictures I took testing it out....although I miss my old camera *moment of silence* a mega pixel is so much better ! Also if anyone has any great photograpy ideas please comment. I'll mostly be using my camera to take pictures and videos of my son. I set up my little "at home studio yesterday" but I cant come up with anymore ideas.....if anyone has any please feel free to tell me.

"Woooooo Are You?"

These are a repeat from week #14

1. Do you type on a keyboard the correct way or do you peck like a cute little chick? I type on the keyboard the correct way. The reason is because I went to a Catholic School and had to take a typing class, and if we ever looked at the keys the nun would hit our desk with a ruler...LOL..so I definitley NEVER peek because I can still hear the ruler in my head now. = )

2. Typically how long does it take you to get ready in the morning? If im not doing my make-up about 15 minutes. If im doing my make up I would say a half hour.

3. Do you prefer lip gloss or lipstick? I prefer lip gloss because its easy to apply and goes with everything.

4. Do you take clothes to the dry cleaner or wash them yourself even if they say dry clean only? I wash them myself.

5. Do you prefer Wal Mart or Target. I prefer target only because they have a better selection of clothing.

My Good-bye Letter To The Old Me

For as long as I remember I've held my heart on my sleeve. I've always been "sensitive" as others would put it. I have always put myself out there to end up disappointed. I'm far from perfect, but for some reason I've always put so much pressure on myself "your not good enough", "your not pretty enough", or "I'm not strong enough." i remember times looking at others and saying "why cant I be that person? I would give anything to be anybody but me." All these thoughts running through my head like a negative projector. Thoughts like this make it easy to fall prey to your own mind. It makes you a victim against yourself and starts a vicious cycle of "learned helplessness." It made it easy to feel sorry for myself or to say I can't control my circumstances. I'd coward away because I was too scared to deal with my problems head on. In return things only got worse. It ended me in bad relationships too afraid to move on, becoming easily discouraged, and not standing up for myself. It has caused me to lash out at others because of my own failures and weaknesses.

So I've decided I don't want to be that person anymore ! I don't want to hide. I don't want to be weak. I don't want to continue this cycle because of: MY SON. I want him to have confidence, I want him to be strong, I want him to not be afraid of anything, in other words I don't want him to be "me". I want him to know he can achieve anything, that I'll always be there, and that failure doesn't mean he's not good enough. In wanting all these things for him I realized who will teach him that if I, myself don't have those qualities? Which, is why I decided to write a good-bye letter to the old me. I will no longer play a victim to myself. Although my confidence is alot better from the years before I will believe in myself so my son can believe in himself. I will no longer be afraid to fail or coward away because I'm accustomed to it, but I will fight if not for me but for my son. Believe it or not children emulate what we are. I don't want my son to do that so I'm saying right here right now: Good-bye to the old me.

Happy Feet !

My son this past week has just realized his feet not only belong to him, but are his new playmates !

My Great Buy !

Everyone has something that is their "thing." The thing that gets them all excited and anxious to use or try on. My thing? Is make up ! I absolutely LOVE make up. I can truly spend my whole day at a M.A.C. Counter just watching other's getting their make up done. I get so excited trying a new look or watching tutorials on YouTube and trying to learn them, while adding my own flair to the look. Yesterday, I went into Sephora and purchased this make up kit from Urban Decay. I usually purchase M.A.C. But I felt I needed to change it up. This kit is my new favorite thing it includes: a book of shadows (16), primer, mascara, and liquid liner. It also includes a portable speaker to attach to your keys, bag, or anywhere you fancy. The thing I like about this kit is that it has a variety of colors from earth tones to pinks, blues, and purples. I'm very happy with this purchase. What's some of your "things" that you can't live without and get all excited about? Is it shoes, clothes, or earrings ? :)

Halloween 2011 + Frankie's 1st Halloween !

This Halloween was quite an exciting one. Not only was it my son's first Halloween, but also my first Halloween as a parent *Smiling from ear to ear* . I decided on his dragon costume instead of the shark one I brought. He gave me some minor problems with putting the costume on, but then he was his regular happy go lucky self. We met up with my fiancee's family as well as some parents within the neighborhood and went "Trick or Treating." Frankie was on his best behavior even though he was napping the majority of the time. His dragon costume was a hit, and all the children were so excited for him to be joining them. It was a great Halloween and hopefully many more to come !